winds of change: Nov. 10, 2015

Partly cloudy gave way to clear air at sunset. The last of the doors locked, alarm set, temperature slowly slid from the high of 84 degrees, 29 Celsius. The black vehicle interior hot, AC blasted, joined the parade homeward bound, headlights on, only a forty-five minute commute. Planned in my head Wednesday’s schedule, the customers to contact, the vendors to order, the staff to manage: did not know I would never return there to work. The driveway was dark. The house was dark. The change I had dreaded for 30 years was at hand. She was on the couch, alive, but in severe pain from a shattered left ankle seven hours prior. Her phone was out of reach. The change from full-time employee to full-time caretaker had begun.

red overtakes blue
sky rotates into black void
two days to new moon

Haibun Monday at d’Verse Poets prompts to write about changes and how they affect life.

My wife has had Type I diabetes for 45-years, on an insulin pump for 15-years and on nightly peritoneal dialysis for nearly two years. She spent three weeks in the hospital during the first ankle surgery, was released, fell at home the next week and broke the same ankle again. Another three weeks for surgery and complications followed by daily home nursing visits and medications over the next six months. She started walking in July and I started writing again. As changes go, it’s turned out to be a plus.

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47 thoughts on “winds of change: Nov. 10, 2015

  1. I wish you and your wife the best, Brian. The best laid planning can’t foresee situations like this one. Thank you for sharing and I hope your writing can serve as cathartic during these difficult days.

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  2. Much love to you and your wife, Brian. You were brave to share this in your haibun. I hope your wife is feeling much better and I’m glad you’re writing again – it’s a great outlet for you and we get to read it!

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  3. Oh Brian, the haiku is beautiful, but the whole experience just shatters my heart. I am diabetic, too, but Type II. I’ve avoided a lot of the suffering, but still. May you and your wife get through all of this and may life be calmer. You have beauty in your writing, and kept me on the edge of my chair. Thank you.

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  4. A truly personal write that I am privileged to read. Our spouses are our friends for life and we share our all with and for them. Prayers for you and yours – and the continuity of compassion within love.

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  5. First off, your prose really kept me in suspense…however I was so saddened by the outcome. Your story is what a marriage is truly about….strength, compassion and loyalty during the worst of situations. Wishing your wife continued healing and smoother times ahead for both of you.

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  6. Oh dear, you definitely take your commitments seriously. To go from full time worker to full time caretaker is no small change in lifestyle, but yes there is the advantage in that you now have time to write. It seems that life has its tradeoffs….but still oftentimes life is hard. My best to you on your difficult journey!

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  7. Isn’t it interesting how even the worst of experiences can be turned to good? Sorry you both had to go through this; happy that it is, in balance, a good change. (I have diabetes, too. Quite a challenge, I realize.)

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