The d’Verse prompt is to write about a city at night and I’ve chosen to post a haibun about something that happened to my wife and I 31 years ago in December.
The apartment is mostly barren still. No lights or tree. Too poor and my girlfriend Diane too sick. It’s only been two weeks since the Addison’s diagnosis and immediate hospitalization from the endocrinologist’s office. Death was close then. I ask her what’s wrong. She feels light-headed. Drive me to the ER. She sits up and passes out. I call 911. The EMT’s arrive. She lays in bed talking. I hover and watch. I notice them exchange puzzled glances then panicked ones. Diane notices too. She asks them what is wrong. One blurts out, “Ma’am, I don’t how to say this, but you have no pulse and no blood pressure but you are talking to us!” Diane answers with typical snark that she’s obviously not dead. I ride in back of the ambulance. I have no way back home now. If she dies I want to be there. They find a pulse, it’s been nearly thirty minutes. She falls unconscious. Siren wailing, over the Q-Bridge, New Haven night skyline lit up for Christmas.
black harbor water
stars pivot magnetic north
snow still days away
I came back to look for you, Brian, and here you are with a very frightening night in a city that would normally have had more light than darkness, which is why your final line of prose is so poignant. The haiku is stunning.
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Thanks Kim. This is an episode that we both remember well and have told many times to medical personnel. From the remove of three decades it has become more humorous. The first of several Christmases spent in hospitals. This is set in New Haven Connecticut.
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How is your wife at the moment, Brian? And how are you?
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She’s doing alright. Still taking care of her and not working. The next hurdle is surgery on Dec 1st when she has a fistula installed in her upper left arm. She’s currently doing nightly nine-hour peritoneal dialysis and the fistula is for possible hemodialysis in the future.
I’m doing fine. Writing daily and keeping the house going. 🙂
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My father was a renal patient for most of his life – I remember visiting him as a small child. He also had fistulas – in several places – and was on dialysis for ages. The writing always helps. A joyful, peaceful and warm Thanksgiving to you both.
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Medical technology is wonderful and the majority of doctors and nurses are dedicated and caring. Thanks Kim for sharing your connection to us. We will have good Thanksgiving.
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This is such a different type of Christmas carol, the darkness being lit by your drama, given the way you describe it I do understand that your gift for that year was survival… really a very good haibun
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Thank you. The carols of the bells indeed. Our medical drama has usually happened at night and on the weekends.
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The personal share is moving in contrast to the title ~ I can’t imagine the trauma and pain of the incident and hope both of you are fine ~
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Thanks Grace. It was the beginning of a long journey of medical procedures through the ensuing 30 years. It never gets any easier. We are both fine at the moment thanks for asking.
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This is intense; no festive Christmas that year! “I have no way back home now” is especially poignant.
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The kindness of strangers. Once Diane was transferred to a room, a couple who was in the ER waiting room with me gave me a ride home at 3am. I had no money for a taxi and was prepared to walk the ten miles or so home. Being alive was festive enough.
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A crisis puts everything into perspective!
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Thanks Lynn. We had a very rough couple of years ahead of us.
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Hope you’re both doing well now?!
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More or less Lynn. Some days more, often less. 🙂
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I pray for a Thanksgiving blessing 🙏🏼
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a chilling time of year -then and now – but you made a memorable haibun
“stars pivot magnetic north”
may there always be strangers to give you a lift home when you need it.
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It was an unexpected kindness.
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Wow. I got hit hard by this one. It shook me through to the bones. A powerful bit of writing and a sensational Haibun. Thank You Brian.
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Thank you Paul, there are some memories that simply do not fade.
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A very moving haibun and you have come a long way since this moment. Medicine has moved on so much as well and I hope the surgery will go well on 1st December. Sending you both love and blessings across the miles and wishing you a happy Thanksgiving 💖
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Yes, medicine has gotten ridiculously expensive. Thanks and we are hopeful the next surgery will be as uneventful as the last.
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sMiLes.. can relate
with Dysautonomia..
they say a life long condition..
not technically detected until
my late 40’s..
but well
before
then..
in an emergency
room.. they could
find no blood pressure
for me too.. it was a bit
of a religious
experience
i might
say too..
at 21.. then..
for them at least.. hehe..
but wasn’t much fun in a real way
later in life when i almost did not recover.. with a side
of total exhaustion to exacerbate the symptoms then..
interestingly.. aspects of it do mimic Addison’s disease..
and for me dancing like an Olympic athlete with strength
training same
makes it
non-existent
in symptoms now..:)
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its really the inner strength that makes to speak in a humorous way….hats off to you!
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Thanks stree..
A great medicine..
Humor is..:)
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Thank you for your comment as always. I’m very glad you are symptom-free at the moment.
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Thanks and
Happy Thanksgiving
To you.. my friEnd
Glad your wife
Is hanging in
There.. too
Of course..:)
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very moving….life is strange….beautifully written….prayers your way…!
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Life is what it is. Not so much lemons but a banquet of choices.
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